Mental Health

Whatever You Want, God

God is Our Greatest Encourager | Libero Magazine 2
On good weeks, I spend a lot of time asking God what His desires are for me. I want to know what parts of me still need work. I especially want to know about the rough parts normally hidden from me.

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Being a Christian is the most important part of my identity. There is no one else I want to please more than the God of the universe. There is no one else I would rather know, and be deeply known by, than the savior of my soul. I believe if I am going to claim to have a deep desire for God, I better take it seriously in every aspect of my life.

On good weeks, I spend a lot of time asking God what His desires are for me.

I want to know what parts of me still need work. I especially want to know about the rough parts normally hidden from me.

I do understand these can be dangerous prayers; however, I’ve found the prayers that are scary are often the ones God honors. This gives God quite a bit of space to call me out on things that could take some time to change and get through.

Most recently, as I’ve been asking God what He wants from me, His answer has been: “Learn to rest.”

My initial reaction was something along the lines of, “Anything else instead, though?”

I think too frequently I assume God will send me on some crazy mission, sending me to a third world country. Or He will even call me to save starving puppies in the inner city.

I don’t expect him to ask me to rest. To me, rest equals doing nothing. Nothing equals wasting time, and it’s especially wasting time if it’s about myself, right?

Well, that’s what my inner critical self would like to keep me believing, anyways. Right now, learning how to make self-care a priority is super important to growing as a person.

In the past, God’s answer hasn’t always been to rest. Sometimes God’s answer has been to revisit trauma I would rather suppress for eternity or to challenge a compulsive thought or action I’ve been in denial about.

While it can be painful to confront the parts of ourselves needing the most change,

it’s extraordinarily beautiful that we have a God who refuses to leave us in our junk.

God’s vision for my life is far better than forever staying where I’m at now. He finds so much joy in investing in me and watching me thrive.

The God of the universe chooses to notice us each individually and to craft us. I realize not everyone is impacted by this in a profound way, but for me, there is no greater love.

God has every right to leave me in the dust. Instead, however, He hears my cries and challenges me for my own good. He walks by my side for each step and brings me closer to my full potential every day.

It’s my job to fully trust this change is for my own good, even if it’s not the first thing I’d choose to change.

Part of the faith journey is submitting to plans I don’t make myself.

If this life went as I planned, I never would have recovered. I have recovered, though, and from here I choose to continue to follow the God who brought me to this point.

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Brooke struggled with disordered eating, depression, and self harm at a very young age. She went into recovery at fifteen in November of 2011, and continues to share and learn perspectives for healthy and happy living. Her faith in Christ is what motivated her recovery, and is what continues to motivate her to love herself and others more deeply every day. She deeply enjoys her work at a group home for individuals with a spectrum of disorders. Brooke plans to pursue a four year degree in Psychology at the University of Minnesota, Twin Cities. Brooke believes people (herself included) are messy, but well worth loving and caring for. Some of her interests include running, reading, listening to spoken word poetry, singing in the car and shower, and drinking coffee no matter the time of day. By writing for the Libero, Brooke aims to find another way to put her trials to good use.


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